it's the first day of my training.

yes, i got a job. will come to all the dirt later. =D

for my very first day, i kinda took in a lot. learning everything from the beginning like the mission statement of the company and roles of the baristas. yeap, it's pretty much very different from all other jobs ive ever had or any you may ever had. it's nuts. haha. but still bearable. with free ice blended, how can i not right? ;) it's going to be weeks of training. and then the real work begins.

i really have to buck up starting from NOW. it's all about good management if i want to cope and survive. lets see what i have pending for completion now :

1. accounting exam
2. law exam
3. marketing assignment
4. study barista learning guide and all the other jazz.

oh pressure pressure! if only i can give up my fav tv shows, i can definitely complete everything on time. hmmph.. it's ok. that's why they have DVDs. lol. 

anyways, i noticed my posts have been shall i say.... formal? yeah i know. compared to my previous blogs, there were more hahas and emoticons. well, guess this is the more grown and serious me. *wink*

i was chatting with xin hui last night when i asked her..

tz: whats with all the rumours about you leaving today?
xh: what rumours? it's REAL lah!

i can really cry man. she is one of my favourite friends and she's leaving she already left for her studies in vancouver. i was lucky enough to catch her online while she was waiting for her transfer flight from taiwan to canada. or else, it's 15 hours difference and no way we can keep in touch again. probably but rare.

omg. i feel saddd. xin hui, you come back and i can belanja you starbucks's dark mocha frappucino k! come back asap! lol.

take care, girl :)

three's a strike.

i dont get this news. all about young couples getting knocked up before they're married. im not against pre-marital sex. im not against pregnant girls. im not against illegitimate child. im just uncomfortable with the idea of these couple having to bear so much resposiblities before they're ready for it. this all happens out of a sudden. and that being said, i guess im really in no position to say anything. i mean, the sex was for the pleasure. and the baby, was unplanned. condom may have broke. pills didnt work as expected.

i just wonder. what went through their mind when the pregnancy kit shows a double line indicating pregnant? end of their lives? exeggerating. but at least that's what i would think if it would have happened to me. i'd cried like how katherine heigl did in knocked up. i'd pray and hope abortion was legal here. but that would be killing people say. i'd hope people would still accept me and support me with my every decision. most importantly, i'd hope the father of the baby would still be responsibly there for me. no doubt, but still i'd be scared.

sure, get married. end of story. settled. the chinese culture; the narrowmindedness, the what-people-would-imply. thus, the must marriage. but like i mentioned before. everything needs preparation. and i dont mean preparation as in wedding ceremony. the reception, the guests list, the catering. not those craps. i mean having prepared in their minds. having to be ready for more burden to come. they have more than 30 kgs sack of rice on their shoulder. they have a baby. think, why are they getting married for? they're not married out of love and wanting to be together for a lifetime. they're exchanging vows out of responsibilities and for the sake of the family's reputation.

i dont know why but i see as if all the things they used to have fun doing is now bounded by the existence of the 3rd fella. they've got no choice but to mature. that is, if they want to be good parents. oh see? now they hold the title parents. so instantly. they used to be boyfriend and girlfriend. skipped the stage of being just husband and wife and straight into parenthood instead. sure there's still life after birth. go clubbing and get addressed as clubbing mom. life.

okay, i may have made this look like a really sad and pathetic. but it all boils down to whether the couple is fully aware of what's at stake. they have to give up and give in to so many things. hmm. oh well. there's no bottomline to my post. this is just out of curiousity and mere interest. :)

lemon and herbs not brave? O.o

what you mean not brave?! we killed a chikin! brutally! nyahaha! XD

LOL. randomness.

and my mom's car needed a paint job. the colour was seriously fading. it looks like a car out of the junk yard.

BEFORE:

AFTER:

all you drivers out there, i see you turning green. with envy. ;p

omg im so sleepy right now. but to think of the list of things to do during the one week break makes me even sleepier.

1. study law
2. study accounting
3. bowling history board.
4. marketing assignment

oh okay, seems kinda little but holds really high priority and requires lots of work. *takes deep breath* sighhh. i better get to work soon. see ya peeps.

right now, im waiting for 5pm. ive got somewhere to get to.

im alone at home and ive got nothing to do. just waiting for 5pm. if im not mistaken it's at 5pm. right? omg. i better be right.

maybe i should go steam some chick peas now. something to munch on to pass the time. :)))

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this is bad. this is really bad.

i get up at 6am everyday and only reach home at 7pm everyday especially when classes end in the evenings. thats worse than working adults. and i reach home 1 hour later than usual. so im pretty exhausted at the end of the day if you can tell. so im up and thinking for 12 hours straight, 4 days a week. i know i dont work. i dont get involve in activities in college. and i dont hang out that much. but i still get tired. i have the right to be tired, mind you.

i wake up to the alarm at 6am, hit the snooze button (thank god for snooze buttons!) and get back to sleep. within a few seconds, im back up. cos i know i wont have enough time to get ready. i need at least minutes to conceal the dark circles under my eyes and comb my once straight hair. get downstairs, breakfast ready and hit the road. i steal a few naps on the way to college. oh, sometimes i take short naps in the bus on the way home. lol. i never really dared to do so. im afraid i might go into a deep sleep state and accidentally fall off the seat. but yeah, i try to keep awake looking at the poor people standing. ;p ahah. like i really got nothing else better to do.

sighhhh.

i need to watch my diet as well. ive been eating nothing but junk. im even scared to weight myself now. oh gawd... =/

it's already 1.03am now. jesus. i better get going before my eyes swollen like a fish. later~

in less than 6 hours, sunday will be gone and then it's monday; first day of exam.

haha. like it's anything new or big.

i cant study til the break of dawn now that my sis is back for the holidays. not that ive ever studied til thattt late. thats way too last minute for me. i'll have a panic attack the next day, for sure.

okayyyss, im suppose to be flipping pages right now. i better get going. before that, lemme share a song with you:

I surrender - Celine Dion

There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire's burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake the solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you

'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it to
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no the they can't take that away from me
And they will see...

'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Did you hear my call
I surrender all

'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

click here to download. =))

my energy booster.

but not very much of a mood booster.

i had a sudden craving for starbucks ice blended when i was *ahem* studying. head over to uptown's starbucks and got myself chocolate cream chip frappucino. heehee.

then i got lazy.  -.-

i couldnt continue studying marketing anymore. i was browsing through this stupid subject in the morning, afternoon and night. marketing theories are blardy stupid. it's all repetitive. like, there's nothing productive im getting out of it instead of wasting my time and highlighter ink.

i wanna talk bt this feeling i have. problem is, its just very inexplicable.

true.

i can snap out of it. this bullshit shall just end here. ;)